Let's see: last Saturday was my birthday. I worked at the winery and it was beyond chaotic!! I'll have to write about that experience another time because you name it, it happened. Turns out my foster grandfather passed away that day, too, which has resulted in a lot of family coming out of the woodworks trying to get in touch with my mom and indirectly, me. That's a whole other story.

I've got a crush on one of the guy's in my group at my FT job. I hate being attracted to someone on my team because it is never a good idea to get involved with someone that you work with directly. If things are good, it is difficult to keep the personal part private and stay professional. If things don't go well, it's just as difficult to not let it impact your working relationship and still be professional. I don't think it's a big deal to date someone from work as long as you are in different groups that don't interact together. But working directly with the person always leads to trouble. Which is a big reason why I've been able to keep my feelings to myself and not considered seeing where things might lead. However (did you hear the "but" coming?).... I found out yesterday that he & another woman in my group aren't involved [I had wondered about it; nothing overt with sometimes seeming like they were involved and other times not even close; I think there is attraction there and yet a sense of the brother/sister type of connection - yes, it is weird and I don't pretend to comprehend]. I still don't know if he's single (I was talking with the woman and she told me about the guy she's currently seeing). Again, still nothing major until today. He was helping me with something at my desk and was pointing to my computer screen. As he put his hand down, his finger bumped/poked my arm... no big deal except for the fact that my arm decided to start tingling big time!!! I don't think I've ever had that reaction before. It's nice but on the flip side - NOT GOOD considering again (a) we work together and (b) I have no idea if he's interested in me! Sometimes I pick up an attraction and other times not so much. I fully admit I'm biased and I can't read others very well when my own emotions are involved. Anyway, it's nice not to be obsessed for a change and to be able to put things aside when I go home (hell, when I'm at work, too). Maybe I'm "maturing." LMAO

Yeah, lots of other stuff on my mind, just daily events and happenings, so nothing major. But also nothing that I'm feeling like writing about right now. I wanted to check in and say hello for a change. Time to go again!

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