Let's see - I've mentioned Big Red. He's fading fast and I'm not really interested in being seriously involved with him at this point. However, he does still get my blood pumping. Damn hormones.

Shutterbug: I haven't mentioned him before, he's new. He's in the program with me that I mentioned yesterday. He's got the most gorgeous blue eyes. I could easily fall in love with him, especially with the work we're doing in the program and how open we all are with each other. He's already seen my soul bare - not much left to worry about after that. Downside: we're in the program together, it's a very small community (9 of us & the facilitator) with incredible bonds being formed. I don't want to upset or interrupt any of the processes. Offside: I asked the Universe about it and the answer came back that this relationship is necessary, needed, and important for the group - it will be part of everyone's healing. How freaky is that?! As if I don't put enough pressure on myself; now you're telling me 9 other people will be impacted? GULP. The advantage is the fact that I don't want to cross any lines and it helps keep me in check. We'll see how he responds this weekend. I get to see him in 2 days!!

BS: He's not really BS but they are his initials and I'm amused by that fact. :) He's here at work, a good-looking, very nice guy. I haven't quite read if he's interested back. I think he is and yet there's a hesitation, too. Could be the work relationship, could be something else. He doesn't wear a ring but again that doesn't mean much these days either. I'm tempted to invite him to lunch, just something casual and fun. We've got a pilot project that starts tomorrow that we'll be involved with together, so I can see how that goes. I'll wait until after this weekend with Shutterbug.

Mr. Hops: Another guy at work, however in my actual group, which makes me pause. I never think it's a good idea to get involved with someone that you work directly with. I've decided that I'd love to be friends with him, hang out, date casually, but we wouldn't make it as a couple anyway. So I enjoy the view. :) We're supposed to go to lunch one of these days but we've been swamped with work and changes and haven't had time.

Not-Alexander: Perhaps this nickname is odd but it's just because I always think his last name is Alexander and it isn't! He's a cutie; another work guy; very sweet, and also gay. We're going to lunch next week. :) This crush doesn't bother me!

Pitt: This has been about 2-3 years now, we live in different states, and he's married. Yeah, not proud of it but definitely enjoy the conversations we have. Again, in many ways it is "safe" since we're so far apart and not likely to ever really meet in person. We worked together at my last job; I was at the corp office and he was at one of the field sites. I trained him on the app he had to use, so that's how we met.

Ili: Another coworker; he has a girlfriend. I was flirting with him and joking around, just having fun. Teased him about flirting and asked him to let me know if I cross the line & he said he'd let me know. So I continued to joke and asked "so, have I crossed the line yet?" He never responded and has been uncomfortable around me since then, which is unfortunate. I'm an incorrigible flirt but I never want to make someone uncomfortable, especially when I'm the one he's supposed to come to for help. I've been casual around him and I'm sure he'll get over it once he realizes (a) I know he's not interested and (b) I won't be flirting with him any more.

Mr. TX - I might have mentioned him a LONG time ago but he's always worth talking about. We met online, have talked online & on the phone; have never met in person but always talk about hooking up. We'd probably spontaneously combust should we ever meet in person. I'd be willing to date him, too, if we lived in the same area.

There are a couple others that I like - that one's voice, this one's eyes, that one I talk dirty with - but overall not often enough to really get all hot and bothered about. As if I don't have enough already! The total irony is before Big Red/Shutterbug came into my life in September, most of the other guys weren't an issue or hadn't heard from in forever. Then all of a sudden they came out of the woodworks! So yes, I enjoy the ego boost, ponder what it would be like to be involved with any of them, and at the end of the day I'm still looking for that someone special that thinks I'm someone special, too.

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